 Friday, February 28
reading more into it
What makes a blog a blog? I think if it's a log of some sort, and it's on the web, then it's most likely a blog right? But who really cares. What is a blog to you? There is no easy description content-wise, it's a very personal idea. I don't think it's about linking to any and every popular web topic, spreading it around some more and adding your re-used opinion to it. Although everyone can be found guilty of this at some point, because new developments on the web directly affect us as people who run websites. I think it becomes sickening when that's all people end up doing, but then again those types of blogs offer fodder for our constant need for distraction. I'm lucky to have a few friends that give a damn and check here on a semi-frequent basis, and that's all this site was ever supposed to be. Sometimes I like doing stupid cliché things, sometimes I don't. This site ranges from journal to pure fluff, I'm very schizophrenic like that, one post will depress, the other will make you giggle, and yet even more may make you groan. But that's basically me, and that's all a personal weblog should really be seen as, an extension of the person. Actually giving a damn about a stranger, so much so you become somewhat emotionally invested in their day to day is a rare and unusual thing, there's got to be more than just a few links or some cool pictures to keep you coming back. So like I said, what's a blog to you? popularity shouldn't be a factor (rant) People try to be superstars on the internet, getting mad hits, building an extensive readership, but only few people ever get that, and they didn't try for it either, it just happened. Why? Because they're bloody charismatic and interesting people who are bigger than the medium. All these little dime a dozen websites try too hard, it's about connecting people, not advertising yourself to the masses or a competition. I've made a few connections on-line, they are few and unique, as they should be. I feel it's a million times more meaningful when someone finds you by accident and actually keeps coming back because of you, rather than you being a random link on some stupid webring, although that may work for some people, it doesn't suit me. and one more thing It's strange, but all the people we read and feel like we've gotten to know, I wonder how such a relationship would translate into the real world. I'd like to think it wouldn't be too difficult a transition, I'd sure as hell like to think if I was ever in their neck of the woods we could hook up and grab a drink together, what's the point otherwise? I'm sure some people would never want to make that step, feeling it far safer and manageable to never put a real person to the idea in their head, but I would hate to think that's the majority. So anyway, guys, when are we having that drink? ;) 6:29 PM | Jus | # | no comments
So.
The woman I love is off getting on "bad bad bad" at some party in Trinidad tonight, while I am stuck here, in the eternal hell that is Florida. I miss her, it does not get easier, it does not get any more bearable. Don't let them fool you. Basically it stays the same way, indefinitely. The way you feel the first couple months, is the way you're going to feel until it's over. It's like a pain you can't shake, and end up learning to live with, so much so it becomes invisible to your conscious mind. But, you function, not learn to function mind you, because that's stupid, you've always known how to bloody function. You lose yourself in the routine. But these days my routine is broken, a shambles of its former self, so panic sets it, though I'm slowly adopting another. Some days you might feel a little lonelier than others, but some days you feel an itch that wasn't there yesterday, it doesn't really mean anything, it's just the way it is. You know, life. I totally breathe her in when she's here though, cataloguing all the little things, trying my best to keep the memory fresh. Exercises in futility really, because a picture of an apple pie, ain't an apple pie now is it? (This is not a pipe.) So, I'm going to go to sleep, in my big empty bed, searching around in the sea of blankets to see if she's re-appeared, then I'll glance around the four white walls, sigh, and fall quietly to sleep. 3:22 AM | Jus | # | no commentsThursday, February 27
Vee looks like a killa hottie in this picture.
Now I better get outta here before she pops a cap in my ass. But... Stefan still looks like a killa coolie in this picture. Great now I've got two indians looking to pop a... wait... two indians... CUTLASS in meh ass, shit! I'm getting the fuck outta here for real! 3:14 PM | Jus | # | no comments
New voicemail added, thanks to Arthur and me not hearing my phone ring under layers upon layers of clothes...
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random thought
Gheorghe recently taught me how to say "suck my dick" in Romanian, and it made me wonder, women don't really have anything like that do they? I mean they can't say "eat my pussy" and have it sound offensive. Seems unfair. And by the look on all your faces, I think I better go to sleep ;) 2:48 AM | Jus | # | no commentsTuesday, February 25Monday, February 24
Work? Yes, that's what I should be doing now...
I don't know if I should feel flattered or pissed off that someone liked an idea from me, initially asked me to do something based on it, then decided to do it themselves using what I did as a blueprint... Some money was involved, but nothing big. 7:48 PM | Jus | # | no commentsSunday, February 23
new stuff
Over the months I've acquired some downright hilarious voicemails, which I never keep, I'd like to change that by archiving the more silly ones. So with that in mind, you'll observe a new sub-section to your right, the ones that are there now aren't particularly special - it was all I had saved - and I need to have some content to start off with so... and oh yeah Today is Danel's birthday, the wayward and chemically imbalanced one. 11:36 AM | Jus | # | no comments
I wake up 8:30am, mainly because I went to sleep at 12am, what is the world coming to...
Well I'm apparently productive in the morning, 'cuz I can now turn off comments for specific posts. 9:32 AM | Jus | # | no comments
with regards to her static on the screen
I tend to like dreamless sleep more and more. There was a time I couldn't wait to fall asleep because then my fantasies would run wild; I loved to fly, but even asleep my rational brain would kick in, making leaving the ground a difficult task. But over the years my dreams have just turned into endless mazes of the utterly tedious, they seem to just keep the wheels spinning, making me obsess and worry about things that are not only imaginary, but exist completely in the ether, without form or reason, they just are. The moment I just fall asleep is what I keep chasing, the moment reality slips away and you're nothing, dead to the world. That's what I imagine death is really, just nothingness, and that's a beautiful thought. To be oblivious, to be erased, to not be. There is no greater peace than that, and even that doesn't fit, because peace would also be meaningless at that point. Well, right, so I'm off to sleep. 12:00 AM | Jus | # | no commentsSaturday, February 22Thursday, February 20
the not so distant past
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Ah, so I finally can POST to my own bloody site. Wonderful.
Anyway, for those who want to laugh, I present to you, the pure, the uncut, "Killing time with Aadam," photo-chronicle. Enjoy. 2:23 AM | Jus | # | no commentsWednesday, February 19
I updated the reminders software:
// You can now set a reminder to recur every month. // The "Page Up" key now takes you to an admin page. // You can change the date system (mm/dd/yy) or (dd/mm/yy). // If an item is past due, it will display "DUE" under days left. // You can change the logo that is displayed. 2:47 PM | Jus | # | no comments
Hey I think we're going to redesigning this site, scary huh? You can see the proofs I came up with the night before (I was rather uninspired to do anything based on how much James quoted them).
I also updated a few things on frostbyte, all we've got left to do is fine tune and do the portfolio section. 7:27 AM | Jus | # | no comments
Good lord, does anyone see a resemblance here? Oh wait, not resemblance, complete rip-off? Oh, thought so.
2:30 AM | Jus | # | no commentsTuesday, February 18
Google bought Pyra Labs? Well slap me around and call me Nancy...
Link via Tom 5:16 AM | Jus | # | no comments
I found this from a link off Jairus' site, interesting stuff on spamming, tons of useful information and links. Also, anybody ever heard of LISP?
4:28 AM | Jus | # | no commentsMonday, February 17
only on tv right?
It was innocent enough, a walk maybe 50 feet from the parking lot of Denny's to the door, and wouldn't you know it, before Rossi and I could set foot inside I had to be witness - and co-target - to such human *insert fitting word here* it's still bothering me; we turned in response to some white boy screaming from his car (which was pounding some form of country rock), "...the red, white and BLUE!" right to us, as if in defiance, to which he followed, "go back to your FUCKING country!" Now people, really, how am I supposed to enjoy a meal after that? 11:04 AM | Jus | # | no commentsSaturday, February 15
So, Stacey's up and running, and Vee is on her way. It's an odd and wonderful occurence when women willingly call themselves my wh0res, now after saying that, time to run away before they castrate me...
On another note, somebody - anybody, I may not know you, but I'm a nice guy, really, give me money, I'll design and make your page validate with the w3c, aw hell. No? Fine, that's why all your pages suck. 9:21 PM | Jus | # | no commentsFriday, February 14
Valentine's day would truly never make a blip on my radar were it not for you.
Here's to you for giving it meaning, for loving me all these years. 8:14 PM | Jus | # | no commentsThursday, February 13
When the hell did Aadam see Rossi's machine? I'm living in a time warp...
AND Rossi, where's my camera you broken bastard!? 2:25 AM | Jus | # | no commentsSunday, February 9Thursday, February 6
After trying to write my own RSS generator in PHP, and failing miserably I might add, I re-instituted the old Perl generator from Kalsey. Cool thing, in all this RSS madness I found an extremely cool viewer for Newsfeeds.
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Boy this sucks, reminders are only good when you actually LOOK at them. And me not knowing what day or date it is 90% of the time should really look more often. The 2nd was my brother's birthday and it only just hit me. Fleck.
Anyway, love ya boods. 9:37 PM | Jus | # | no commentsWednesday, February 5Monday, February 3
I really don't think there exists a better review for an iPod:
"I love it. I'd mate with it if I could." - Mella 7:18 PM | Jus | # | no comments |
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