Patience
I have very little, I've always known what I wanted, it's a pity I've done such a shit job of finding it. It's a cruel irony--life is so short, yet we must waste time dancing around each other for a predetermined amount of time until we can successfully pursue anything.
"Don't rush the brush."
Well didn't anybody tell you, nature built in a few time-bombs; some biological clocks are a-ticking, your youth is rapidly evaporating, your resolve slowly diminishing--what exactly are you waiting for?
But it appears, we must play the game, so play the game I will. Better be happy for a spell, than unhappy for a lifetime right?
Huzzah.