this must be what it feels like to be gutted

slow, sliding inside, then pulling gently to the right with a sharp sting, building up so much your body goes off the charts and shuts down, it's all the way across now and all you feel is a sense of loss, emptiness, your limbs have no more life in them, the corners of your eyes start growing dark, and you feel as if you're about to slip into a dream. then it slides out just as slow as it came in - and your body wakes up. the overwhelming pain rushes over you, like all the blood pooled up in your lap, all your nerves are set on fire, you scream but make no sound, blood and saliva speckle your face, then it happens all over again. and again, and again.

I am hating life right about now.

Justin | 9:41 PM