I haven't written two very important people back for going on (or over) 2 weeks now. It's some sort of Justin malfunction, I can write here, but I can't write a bloody email. Anji wrote me on the 13th, and as soon as I read it my gut reaction was to write her back immediately, but what happened... it's the 31st and no reply. Almost every day I sit down, hit the "reply" button and then end up doing something else, getting sidetracked, so there it stays untouched until my computer shuts down, only to be reopened the next day. The same thing happens, with far greater frequency, when it comes to Michelle, she's been waiting since the 22nd on a reply, and I can only assume getting more frustrated and disappointed with each day that response is delayed. She's been waiting just as long on a phone call.

I try, it works for a week, then I slip back into communication breakdown mode. Anyone who knows me, knows this, and has been anywhere from slightly annoyed to bloody well pissed off because of it, or worse yet, doesn't care anymore. I need some sort of assistance/treatment/drug, because I don't like the feeling, I don't like the inability to show someone I care on an everyday basis.

Some might say that then maybe I really don't care, I would oppose that statement with everything I have, but sometimes I wonder, what if they're right. The thought is more painful every time I seem to prove it right.

Justin | 3:06 PM